At launch I wrote a blog about the things God had been showing me. In that post I wrote:
“It is time to step up. No more shying away from things that are a little scary. With boldness, I will will step up.. I will step out.”
Well, as He typically does when we make a proclamation of this type, God took what I said seriously.
Allow me to explain…
Music has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. I’ve taken piano lessons, participated in band programs and choirs and I taught myself to play the guitar. I’ve been playing music for over ten years. I believe God placed a love of music in my heart and He is beginning to reveal to me His intention to use that love to further His kingdom.
Let me tell you a bit about our ministry this month. We are working with Bro. Thomas, the pastor of Bethel Assembly. Basically, Bro. Thomas picks us up everyday and we do ministry with him. During this first week, we have been doing hospital ministry. The first evening we prayed over his brother, Danny, who is currently in the hospital suffering from Dungei Fever. The following night we prayed over other children in the same wing as Danny. Each evening, after leaving the hospital, we go to someones house for tea and prayer.
Tea and prayer. Sounds easy enough, right?
So there we sat, sipping our tea and bro. Thomas says,
“Alright, we’ll sing two songs and then pray.”
And everyone looked at me.
Oh Crap.
Although I’ve always loved music, when it comes to playing in front of people, I usually get really nervous and I forget every song I know. I rely heavily on the paper in front of me… which I didn’t have. We made it through that night, pulling a few songs out of the air and sang them a’capella.
Then last night, in a similar situation I was handed a guitar and told to do two more songs. I panicked. What songs do I know on the guitar? Well, I know plenty.. but in that moment my mind was blank. I had no clue what to do.
My first thought was “I can’t do this… what are they going to think of me? I’m going to let them all down.”
But then I remembered… this isn’t about me. I bowed my head and asked the Lord to give me a song and give me the boldness to lead everyone.
Instantly I knew what I would play and how to play it. As I played… it was all for his glory.. there was no thought in that back of my head about how I sounded. There were no cringes when I played the wrong chord. Funny thing is, when we returned to our house and I looked at the chords I had originally learned for the song, they were completely different than the ones I had played that evening.
God asks us to trust him. He asks us to step out in faith.
And when we do, He will never let us down..
Malaysia is great! Please be in prayer for my team and I as we continue to build relationships with each other and the people around us. Pray that we have boldness and leak Christ's love on everyone we come into contact with.
