^ Thats me ^… Hannah Jayde Berndt. 5’1, brown hair, hazel eyes, and a wild heart.
Life on the race is a constant state of processing. Thinking about who you are and who God has created you to be. Thinking about what is in your past and what things have no place in your future. Thinking of those who are at home and have always been there and of those who hold a new place in your heart.
I find myself thinking of my past a lot. I have been someone whom I don’t even recognize for so many years it’s comical. Only in the last year have I truly walked in the direction of myself, and with the acceleration of The Race I am now well on my way. I’m on my way to knowing what my heart looks like, what my personality is and how I can use gifts I have to love people. Im on my way to being me. The World Race is such a unique opportunity. It allows me to step away from all the hustle and bustle of my “normal” life so I can analyze things from afar. At home, when I was caught up in things, I was too close to see truth. I was too close to see hope or redemption. Taking a look back on my past now, from afar in the Philippines, I see how God is using all of those things for good. I can better see the plan now. Don’t misunderstand, I have no clue the plan that is my life, I only now have a better grasp of the blueprint of Hannah. I see the plans that made me. Here is what I know so far:
I’m sweet, kind, soft, funny, and sensitive
I enjoy the silly side of things
I’ve been hurt and I wear those scars daily and I am working hard to walk out of that
Jesus pursues me everyday and is in love with my heart, and I am falling in love with Him too
I desire to find a man who will lead me to Christ everyday and loves Christ more than he loves me
I want to feel happiness everyday, I desire to fully walk in my calling, whatever that is…
I give in to temptation daily
I worry about everything
I have a Gypsy Soul
I am starting to walk in freedom by shedding light onto the dark
I am who I am without having to try, and that is a beautiful thing
I love Diet Coke
I hate Guinea birds, spiders, mice, heat, and fish.
I don’t like when I use the words “um” or “like” and don’t like when others use the word “whenever” in place of when.
I love to write
I love beautiful pictures
Smell is important to me, I like when things smell nice
I love community life and friends
I absolutely love the life I live and feel like the luckiest girl in the world because I get to do so
Anything can be forgiven and redeemed..anything, but forgiveness comes in the light, not dark
God has great plans for my life, I don’t know what they are, but I am learning to trust in him
I’m a dreamer, and a go-getter, even if the idea is far fetched
I make far off dreams possible, I take action
I treat others very well
I never want anyone to feel any negative feelings, and have based my decisions on others for the majority of my life, even when it requires me to sacrifice something important to me
There are many sides to me: Hippy, biker chick, hipster, rock climber, sports addict, partier, planner, traveler, writer, outdoorsy girl, girly girl, fancy, grungy…. and all are OK, all are a part of what makes me who I am.
Im learning that my many interests is a gift. It allows me to relate to a lot people. I am not “changing” myself in acting any of these ways, I’m using this gift to express myself outwardly and relate to others.
I love fiercely.
I’m wild at heart.
I’m pretty dang awesome…. not because you say so…. because God does…
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Thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart.
