Ok ok so this blog is not exactly about a disco… and I’m not REALLY panicking; but I just really like that as a blog title!
Something that has been rolling around my think tank for some months now is what to do after the race. Where do I go, where do I live, do I get a job, do I go back to school?!
Upon coming on the race I thought I would find the answer to these questions. I thought for sure by month 10 I would know what my “calling” is and what to do with it. I thought I would have it figured out.
Once again, I was a bit off. This year has not given me a clear path for my future. It has not revealed to me what career I should choose or what city to live in. If anything, it’s more wide open than ever. But I have to step back for a moment because although I expected these things happen this year, its not the reason I made the choice to go.
This year I have built a relationship with God. I am not a “Bible beater” or a “Bible Betty” or whatever rude label you want to use; I’m still just me. Beautiful, caring, wild and courageous me.
Over the past year through my renewed relationship with God, I got to know myself again. I have gotten to rediscover strengths I’ve been gifted with, qualities that are beautifully unique to me and abilities that God has been growing in me without me even knowing it. I have found passion in unexpected things such as creativity, music, and nature. I have found dislike in things I previously “loved” and I have gained a confidence in my spirit that will never again diminish.
I’m not worried about having a plan for the months after the race. I’m not concerned about a career or income. If I have learned anything over the past year it is that God some way or another provides a path. He never leaves us hanging. He has been revealing so many things to me this year, I know it will all come together for His purpose and His glory.
I’m not at a disco, I’m not panicking and I’m not scared of the unknown. I may not know my plans at this moment but I assure you that my intentions and my searching are rooted in the Lord. I am waiting with patience and endurance to hear how to better walk in the footsteps He has prepared for me on this earth.
I’m just fine without any sort of plan, because I have the great planner waiting until the exact perfect moment to reveal His plan for me.
What a weight lifted off of my shoulders.
What a breath of fresh air.
What a gift.
What a God.
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