Father,
What am I missing
Where are you
Why is it a struggle
Is my strength not enough
Is my desire not enough
What’s not clicking
What am I doing
Carrying the weight of excess
Weight of my pack
Weight of my emotions
Carrying the weight of my chains
What is it God
Reveal it God
I’m ready
Ready with wild abandon
Show me your ways Lord
Less of me and all of you
Find me here
I’m not moving until I hear
I’m not moving until you’re here
I hear your whisper Lord
Shout it out Lord
So my deaf ears will hear
I surrender.
Click. Click. Boom.
I have found you in the abandon
I have seen you in the truth
In the scary depths of me
I have been forgiven
I have been given instant grace
I can move forward
You gave me breath
I got lost
And only there did I find you
No more excess
My focus is steady
No more distraction
My heart is ready
I wait for you God
I wait in the wild nothingness
I wait for you in the abandon
I wait for your lead
Lead me oh Lord
To wild wilderness with you.
What an incredible God I worship! He has given me such revelation this past month!! My fire is re-lit and my heart ablaze to spread the kingdom. Just when I thought He would never show up, just when I thought I was unfixable; He put His love upon me like a forceful hurricane wind. I feel it now, I receive it now!! I get it. I’m finding only when I am completely brokenly honest with Him can he mend my heart. I wasn’t “getting it” before because I wan’t giving myself up. I was holding on so tightly to old wounds labeling them as “too much” “too dark” or “unforgivable”. How wrong that was. How ignorant of me to think my God wasn’t bigger than those dark places. I have received pure grace because through Gods love I honestly know I deserve it. I must love myself and give myself completely to him in all my brokenness for Him to redeem it. ….duh… why was this so hard?! I am stubborn and I love control, but I have felt love from the Father so deeply that nothing can separate me from the King of Heaven; not now, not ever.
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