They warned you. They told you this would happen. They prepared you for this. They prompted us how to handle it. They said it wouldn’t be easy. They prayed over you for this reason.
And then it happens. Blindsided. The enemy strikes again.
Smooth sailing. That’s where I found myself to be. I was home from camp. The in between stage of camp and launch. It’s 5 weeks. How bad could it really be? I have kept myself in devotion. I was really finding myself in a great place spiritually. I was growing so intimate in my relationship. I was becoming more aware of the Spirit working in my life and guiding me. I had separated myself from worldly desires and temptations. I was focused and ready. Then it happens.
They warned us the enemy would be out for us. They told us this was prime opportunity for the enemy to bring us down. Which why wouldn’t he. We are doing the one thing the Lord has called us to do. Go out and be disciples and spread His love!! So it begins. He creeps into our daily lives. Eats at our thoughts. Creeps into those we love around us. Breaks us down. Tears us apart. Hurts us to the core. He thinks he has won. Why would I leave now? Why with all this doubt and fear would I press on?
FAITH. My God knows what’s best. My God shows His face in all situations. My God presents nothing to me that I cannot handle. My God is building me up to be a great follower of Him. My God is teaching me to trust in Him in all situations. My God forgives me for everything. My God loves me unconditionally. My God is working in my to do great things. My God is pleading with me not to get discouraged. My God wants me to shine in the darkest of times because He lives in me. My God carries all my burdens.
I AM NOT IN CONTROL.
Am I scared? Heck yes. Am I excited? Heck yes. All the emotions have been had in this process. That doesn’t make me unworthy. It is healthy to feel all of these things as long as I keep trusting and pursuing Gods vision He has set for me. We are meant to ask questions. We are meant to listen for His voice.
Enemy listen up. You will not prevail. You will not win this battle. God has fought the fight and has won! You are not wanted here. So Satan GET BEHIND ME!! I’ve got places to go!
Love all of you so dearly,
Hana Beth
