for those of you that have been following my journey on social media, you’ve seen my fundraiser that is available with Keys for the Journey. if not, the link is keysforthejourney.com and you can select my name at checkout to support my WR. when i received my prophetic key, i wasn’t prepared for what the Lord was about to show me through my word.
my journey with the Lord has been anything but easy. i’ve went through MANY seasons of questioning. i’ve never trusted easy, so when it came to trusting God…well i didn’t really understand the importance. after being let down so many times by people around me, why would trusting Him be any different? to be completely transparent with you all, the biggest struggles hit after i lost my dad almost two years ago. i’ll be honest with you, i’ve struggled with mental illness for quite a few years, but after losing my dad — i hit a new low. after going to Haiti last May and returning to the states, things got very dark for me. i dealt with MONTHS of constant anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts. i can honestly say i wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for the people God placed in my life to help me along and for His faithfulness throughout it all. i began to hit a point where i didn’t trust God anymore, honestly. i was scared. i was hurt. i felt betrayed. there were days i wouldn’t get out of bed. i called off work. i skipped classes. i let my grades fall. i tried to run away from my hurt. i pushed people out. i hurt people because i was hurting. i consistently asked why God would take my dad when i was doing all that He was asking of me. but the truth of the matter is, it had nothing to do with me. i let the enemy take hold of my heart. i believed the lie that i was unworthy. not cared for. not enough. too much. unloved. broken. bitter. alone. it took me getting to a place where i couldn’t even stand on my own and look at myself in the mirror to realize that the battle i was fighting was more than what i could see. it took me sobbing on my bathroom floor one night unsure of how to keep going to see that God had never left my side. i honestly put my closest friends through more than i care to admit in the midst of my pain…but through it all a few of the best stuck around and held me up. they prayed for and with me when i couldn’t do it on my own. they lifted me up when i was falling. they believed in a miracle for me. they helped me to see the beauty in the life that i still had left to live. they didn’t let me give in. they weren’t going to let the enemy take me out that easy. so i fought back.
over the course of the past few months, i’ve began to see why trusting the Lord in every season and every situation is extremely important. after taking my next step in faith and applying for the Race, God has moved in EXTREMELY significant ways in my life. from beginning to heal from my struggles with anxiety and depression, to placing new people in my life that i didn’t know i needed. every move in the in between has been everything i needed before. this is where trust comes in — i’ve trusted the Lord with this journey. i’ve trusted the Lord with MY journey. after praying over what God was trying to speak to me through my key, i’ve began to see what He’s been trying to speak to me the entire time. to take a step back, relax and trust Him where He is leading. you see, it’s no coincidence that i held on. it wasn’t a mistake that i didn’t give in when my thoughts were waging war. it took ME trusting HIM to get me where i needed to be. y’all, i’m so grateful for the Lord’s faithfulness. i’ve placed all my trust in Him and i’m leaving the rest behind.
if you haven’t ordered your necklace yet, i HIGHLY recommend ordering a prophetic key..see what God is trying to speak into your life. pray over that word. let Him show you what you need. for me, it was trust and it was SPOT ON. i’m excited to see what God does through this and even more so to hear the stories that come along with it.
i love y’all. i’m praying for you throughout this season.
