On Friday December 19 my grandma passed away. She had gone unresponsive the day before and we knew it was only a matter of days. When I left my grandma to return to college after Thanksgiving break, the one thing I asked God was that I would be able to see her one last time. He answered that prayer. I was able to get back into town 7 hours before she passed. The past few days I have been in a daze. I find myself wondering, is she really gone? There are moments when I’m doing something that if I didn’t know what to do I would call her and ask for help. Those are the moments when it is real. I can’t call and ask her for help anymore, I have to figure out how to do somethings on my own now. I won’t ever hear her say “spooks” as I walk in her door. We won’t watch any more KU basketball games together. I will never have her famous chocolate chip cookies again. BUT in the midst of this pain there is JOY!
I could sit here and wish that my grandma was here with me. But she is now in Heaven, she has seen Jesus. For us who are believers that is something we can only dream about. My grandma will never again have to experience the pains of this world. She is now worshiping God in Heaven! I know that one day I will see her again! Yes there is pain, but there is so much more joy in knowing that in Christ it is never “goodbye” it is simply “see you later.”
