I have always been an independent person. As I got closer and closer to Training Camp the feelings of excitement, fear, nerves, uncertainty, anxiousness and everything else you could imagine were creeping in. When I got to Training Camp though I started to feel more and more comfortable. I had the mindset of “Yeah, I got this, this is going to be easy, all I have to do is camp for 10 days.” That mindset vanished as I began setting up my tent.
Backstory: I went out to prepare for the fitness hike one day with my tent on the outside of my pack. I didn’t notice it but one day my tent poles fell out. I didn’t find out these were missing until 2 days before camp. I then had to run around trying to find tent poles that worked.
So anyways I went to set up my tent only to find that the poles I got were too short and so my tent was not going to be functioning at camp. I had wonderful squad mates who offered to let me stay in their tents and I had no choice but to accept their offer or else I would be sleeping outside. It was at that point that God started breaking me of my independent, I don’t need anybody else mind frame.
At training camp God taught me the importance of community and what it means to be able to open up to people. I wasn’t so keen on this later part because I hate being vulnerable, but I had to open up to people if I wanted complete healing from past wounds and that’s exactly what I did! I now have a sense of freedom, joy and peace that I have not experienced in such a long time!
God broke me at Training Camp right from the start to show me I need other people and I can’t do The Race on my own. He broke me, but He also restored me!
I learned so much at my 10 days at Training Camp and I can honestly say I am not the same person I was when I first went. I can’t wait for the next 11 months to experience what God is going to do. To be able to be a part of His work is an honor and I am not qualified but, “He doesn’t call the qualified. He qualifies the calle
