America is hard and frustrating. America is materialistic. Americans are just not as friendly. People are way to time orientated here. These are all thoughts I have had in the last month I have been home. I had tried to mentally prepare myself for re-entry while I was still on the race, but I could never fully prepare myself. I came back from so many countries where people were okay with living with what they had. They didn’t care about time, they were more concerned with building relationships. If I was walking down the streets in other countries and I made eye contact with others they would smile at me. In America that doesn’t happen, in fact people may avoid making eye contact with you all together. America just isn’t the same and I will be honest most days I wish I was still overseas. However, God keeps reminding me that I am here in America, more specifically Hutchinson, Kansas for a reason.
It’s been 5 years since I have actually spent a long period of time back in Hutchinson and now I’m getting ready to spend at a least a year here. That’s weird. Nevertheless, God continually shows me He is working here. I have heard conversations going on around me about people talking about how great His love is. I have been given opportunities myself to sit down and talk to random people and tell them of God’s goodness. So even though there are times where I’m not okay with being back at home I am learning to be content and I am constantly reminding myself that God has placed me exactly where I am at for a reason.
Right now in life I am trying to find a job. I have found that a little more difficult. However, I know that God is going to give me a job at the place He wants me. Therefore, I am continually trusting Him. I am excited for the next chapter in my life and for what God has planned.
