I am sitting down, in a dark cabin (a bar/restaurant) with one candle light. Hot black tea in front of us. I am feeling cold. I am feeling the heaviness here. Then I look at her. A girl, who is eleven years old. She looks at me and smiles really big. Then she starts singing in Nepali. My heart starts to beat really fast. I start to think, “This girl is so beautiful, why is she here? Why is she in this dark place? It’s hard for me to see a women to be a victim of sex trafficking, let alone a eleven year old girl..”
“Haley, it doesn’t matter where she is. Focus on her and give her my joy. Give her my light. Give her my love.“
“Okay Father, I will do that.”
I smiled to the little girl and said, “You’re voice is so beautiful.” She giggles and smiles back. She sings again, but in English. Myself and others start to sing along with her. The dark room is filled with light and joy. I start to feel warm and see the light getting brighter and brighter.
Then, I start to hear yelling in another room. “We have to get out of here, they have customers,” said by our ministry leader. Immediately the light and joy goes away. We quickly say our goodbyes. I hugged the girl really tight. As I walked out of the building, I turned my head to the little girl and waved goodbye, she waves back.
As I walked away, I spoked to God.
“Father, why can’t I save her? Why can’t I rescue her? She is not supposed to be there. None of the girls are.”
“Haley, it’s not your job to save everyone.”
That echoed for awhile, “It’s not your job to save everyone.”
All night, God spoke some truth to me about my thoughts. He told me to go back to my old emails from my mom. So I did and came across this email from her:
Your job is not to save these peoples souls, your job is to love them and through love they will see Christ and know there must be more to life. We, as a Christian, think so many times we have to take on the job of saving souls but that is not our responsibility. You need to love people through words and actions. Yes, sometimes that means talk about Christ, your faith, and what Jesus did on the cross. But the saving and the changing of someone’s spirit comes from Christ and the Holy Spirit. Don’t worry about preaching…Again you just have to love people and He will do the rest. Who knows how your actions will effect someone, even 50 years down the road. You also have to remind yourself that you don’t have to have all the answers either.
“Okay Father, I get it. I can’t save everyone. I can’t save the girls from being victims in sex trafficking. I can’t save kids being left alone in the streets. I can’t save everyone. But what I CAN do is share your love. Bring your light and joy to them. Encourage them through your words. Make them laugh and make them feel completely loved. I will keep praying for them and trust that you will take care of the rest. I will trust that you will be with them and protect them all the way through.”
For those of you in the same boat as me of wanting to save everyone. You can’t. What you can do is show His love, joy, and light. Trust that He will take care of the rest.
Salvation does not come through religious rituals or the Law, but through God crediting righteousness through faith alone.
This week is our last week of ministry here, in Nepal. Please pray that we will finish strong and really shine His light. Pray that we are able to bring joy to the women that are victims of sex trafficking. Pray that we are able to bring His love to the street kids. Pray that we are able to bring his light as we walk down the dark streets of Kathmandu, Nepal.
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Thank you all for your love, support, and prayers!
God Bless
