My apologies, readers; it has been quite the minute since a blog has been posted.
Let me give you the downlow: at the end of last month I had written two blogs. They were ready to go as soon as I got internet connection, which would have been the morning of the travel day to Costa Rica. Well, when I went to turn on my computer, womp womp, the little guy gave his last breath.
My blogs we gone with the life of my computer. And let me tell you, once you have already used your motivation to write two blogs you don’t have much motivation remaining to re-write those same blogs.
SOOO I will simply combine the two blogs and make one masterpiece!
NICARAGUA!
Last month my team, as well as team Raised to Life, was located in Diriamba, Nicaragua. As I said in my previous blog, our contact didn’t have a schedule laid out for us, so last month we had to be quite inventive. Along with being inventive, we had to learn a lot about self-discipline.
Our days consisted of either entertaining pre-schoolers, clearing out an overgrown pathway, helping out with one of the four church programs throughout the week, or praying over locals within the center of the town.
In our free time – which was not the hardest to come buy – I spent my time either throwing rocks at trees to knock down mangos, helping kill thousands and thousands of ants that would randomly infest our rooms, crocheting hats and footies for the approaching chill in Europe, creating a dread-train, or having a go with Sean T. and his Insanity workout.
There were many different things that I did within the month of Nicaragua, but more importantly, God and I began an investigation of what love is.
Right now, say out loud, “I love God and He loves me.” (yes, you!)
It’s not too hard to say it, right? That is what I have thought and have said all my life: God loves me. I love God.
It’s one thing to say it, it’s another thing to feel it.
Last month I realized that I had only been saying these phrases, but I haven’t really felt it within me. I can feel and see the love that I have for my mom, for my friends, for my family, for my boyfriend, but do I have that same feeling when I think about God?
One of my Racer friends explained to me what I should prayer for:
He compared the love of God to colors of a rainbow. There are so many colors, just as there are so many different ways God can show one love. Maybe, just maybe, I had set an expectation that I should feel God’s love in only one way, the color blue. So, since I was insensitive to all the colors of the rainbow and only focused on the color blue, I have been missing out on so many expressions of love! Crap!
For the past month I have been praying for sensitivity to God’s love, as well as reading throughout scripture where there are examples of His love. I haven’t quite put all the puzzle pieces together, but I figure that love is a process, a choice that you and the other must work on together.
After being in Costa Rica for two days, going through team changes, and then traveling for three days straight, I am glad to say that my new team Depth of Freedom and I are here in Draganesti-Olt, Romania!
Financial Update: So close, yet so far, I still have a total of $2,966 until I am fully funded!!!
If you are currently in Georgia, you should check out ordering some home made Italian sauce or desert breads, freshly baked by the best cook in the world – my mom, Lori Jandrlich Forrester! If you’re interested (which you should be, she’s awesome) you can contact her via email at [email protected]
