Month one has come and gone and it went by way too fast. A piece of my heart will now forever be in Serbia, the people we met, the place we went, the things we did. The dots didn’t seem to connect at first, but now looking back I can see where we were and what we did all had an impact and a purpose. Ministry doesn’t look like one specific cookie cutter thing, ministry is how you live your life aligned with how Jesus calls us to live our lives and how you reflect that to the world.
I want to walk around and shine a light that is so radiant that people ask “why is she so different?” I want to be Jesus with skin on to people who just need someone to extend a bit of grace when they feel like all hope is lost. As I’m writing this a song came up and one of the lines says “our hearts are heavy burdens we don’t have to bear alone” I think that is so true and something The Lord is working on in my life. In being vulnerable enough to let someone see the things that burden my heart and to walk through that along side me. I always hear how we were meant to live in community with one another, but actually living it out is sometimes uncomfortable and different. I’m not called to be comfortable, because change doesn’t happen when you’re in your comfort zone. Month one taught me a lot about sacrifice and saying no to some things so you can say yes to other things, and that intimate friendships are about give and take and getting out what you put in. Being willing to turn to each other in the conflict instead of turning away. I am thankful for my team and the willingness to have conversations and for wanting to press into things instead of being comfortable and retreating when conflict arises.
