If I no longer had friends to laugh and share my life with or a loving family to support and encourage me unconditionally, would I be ok with just me and God?
If I could no longer “serve” God, give back to God for His gift of salvation, or be a part of bringing souls from death to LIFE in Christ, would I be ok with just me and God?
If I had Christ alone, no titles of missionary, leader, example, mentor; take your pick for what title you see yourself as or desire to be seen as, would I be content knowing God loves me unconditionally? Would I understand in all its depth that no “good work” will earn God’s favor, because the “love of God has [already] been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given [as a gift] to us” (Romans 5:5)? Do I really know that God’s love has been poured into my heart, and I do not have to DO one more thing FOR God, nor have I ever had to DO anything FOR God to keep this outpouring of perfect love? I just have it!
As much as I say with my mouth that I understand, does my heart truly know and understand that God “did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over FOR us all” and that He will “freely give us all things” (Romans 8:32)? God freely gave up His son and freely gives us all things. Wow.
If I truly knew all of this; if I understood this love Christ has for me, I would be ok with just me and God.
But am I?
Can I accept just being with God, and not doing anything else that makes me feel good or feel like I somehow earned His love and favor?
I’m not sure I can truthfully answer yes to this question. I want to say ‘yes, of course I would be satisfied just being with God’, but the truth is… I don’t know.
These are the thoughts that have been spinning around in my head for the past 2 weeks in Cape Town, South Africa. I know my heart is to give my life completely to my daddy God. He knows that my heart says “yes” teach me Lord! So even though I do not really understand the depths of God’s gift of love, His grace continues to pour over my life. That is the beauty of Christ; He shows me where I fall short and He confronts me of my sin and pride, and then invades my heart with His love, reminding me that, “He who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ” (Philippians 1:6). I do not have it all figured out. I realize almost everyday (by the grace of God) that God is immeasurably good and I Need Him. As I see my need for Him, Christ is magnified.
Slowly I am coming to realize that I do not really KNOW my Father, but it is ok. He knows me, and that makes all the difference. I pray for a “yes” in my heart towards whatever God has for me, and thank God that His grace covers ALL!
Lord, I want to be ok with just YOU and me.
