Well, my life definitely needs a huge bag to hold all the many things I could tell you; good and bad. But, for now, I think I can write the minimum amount with the strongest emphasis on my heart’s passion.I am 21 years of age, and have been following the Lord since I was 15. I know what you’re probably thinking, “How much damage could she do before 15?” Well, actually, quite a bit. I came from a pretty broken home. My dad was an alcoholic and abusive, so my mother left him, when I was 3. We moved far away, and my mother raised me and my four brothers. It was definitely tough on her, taking on the responsibility of five children all by herself, but she managed. We moved around, due to her being in the military. I loved the lifestyle. It wasn’t always easy leaving friends behind, but the places I’ve been and the things I’ve seen are the only reasons that I could’ve done it.
When I was in middle school, I started experimenting in “worldly” things; my friends and I participated in events that were not appropriate for children of our age. While in my early teen years, the phrase “finding yourself” was a huge factor of my life. I suffered with depression, from not having a relationship with my mum; we fought all the time. Well, with depression came suicidal thoughts which then turned into attempts. I am living proof that the only salvation from those demons is Jesus Christ. He’s the reason that I am able to type this message. Had it not been His intervention, in one of my attempts, I would not be here.
Anyway, when my mum was stationed in SC, I transitioned into high school. By my sophomore year of High School, I had an “emotional breakdown” and surrendered my life to the Lord, and since then have been following Him with a burning passion. I’ve been so blessed to be apart of discipleship ministries, leading women and being led in the instruction of God’s Word. The most humbling experience, so far, was being given the opportunity to pour my life into women who were desperately seeking to know more about God’s wonders and how it was applicable to their lives. I didn’t feel that I was leading them, but, rather, walking with and learning from them. 🙂
Fast forward to today……after Haiti’s earthquake there were advertisements everywhere on how to help, but I still didn’t feel the call. I started praying hard that the Lord would allow me to help and I was also praying to find a one month trip (separate prayer). I received an email within two days talking about the trip to Haiti, and I KNEW this was what the Lord wanted and that He was answering! I signed up the day of, and now here I am. I’m so excited and just thinking about this trip really brings me to tears. I’m so ready to be humbled, to connect with the team, spiritually, to love these people who truly deserve it, and to pour my heart and my life into them. Lord, I’m so ready! 🙂
