I’m scared of change. Change is inevitable, it happens every day, but it scares me. I’m scared my friends are gonna replace me. I’m scared I’m gonna come home to a completely new place. Leaving home after 18 years in the same neighborhood is a big step. These thoughts and fears of change are not God centered. I can’t let these fears consume me. I find comfort in the fact that the Lord wants us to step out into the great unknown.
At church last Sunday, we had a guest speaker come speak. He spoke about Eagles & flying a lot. What stuck with me was “He wants to teach you to fly.” Wow what a perfect message that I felt God was speaking right into my heart.
Our Father wants to teach ME to fly. I trust that I will soar across the world next year being who the Lord wants me to be. “We only move when we feel the wind of the holy spirit.” This is powerful to me. I’ve never really felt like God is talking and moving directly to me until this adventure. I have leaned in closer and the only reason I’m leaving home is because the wind of the holy spirit pushed me out of the nest. (a little cliche I know)
This word “fly”, that is my theme for next year. Whenever I feel any negative emotion, I will remember God is teaching me to soar like an eagle. We sang a song at training camp, that had the words, “I wanna soar on wings like eagles, I wanna run and never stop.” That’s exactly what I want to do. I want to continue to dive into what the Lord is putting in front of me.
So as I Launch in 2 weeks, I’m SO incredibly scared. I’m nervous to leave my parents, my siblings, and my best friends. It doesn’t even feel real. But I am also so so excited to spend 9 months with my super awesome squad mates & the Lord himself.
“Though you soar like the eagle and make your nest among the stars, from there I will bring you down,” declares the Lord.” Obadiah 1:4 NIV
Thank you times a billion to everyone who has supported me. Please continue to pray for me, my parents, and my squad. I still need $2,000 before October 31st, so if you feel led to donate any amount, don’t hesitate. Also please write me letters that I can take with me to open up at random times when I’m missing home. Love you all.
Xoxo, Hails
