Some time this last year God gave me a vision showing me His
GRACE. I was sitting on top of an
innertube out in the middle of the ocean.
It was like a birdseye view right over me starring straight down ontop
of me but then it panned out and I kept getting smaller and smaller. The ocean was calm and I was at ease, gently
floating on this sea of Grace, as this was an illustration of how much grace He
had for me.
Well,
earlier last month I was asking the Lord about going deeper and wanting more of
Him. He brought me back to the same
vision as described from above. Then I
had the idea of something popping the inner tube and I as going to be left
swimming. But nothing popped it, and I
waited and waited. But then it occurred
to me that I needed to make the decision myself to abandon the raft and dive
.
With
all my strength I shoved the raft away and started to dive…deeper and
deeper. I was thinking that as I dove
deeper the weight around me would crush me but it wasn’t. But before long I realized that I was holding
my breath as I kept diving deeper and deeper and for a brief moment fear came
over me. I wanted to dive deeper but my
physical body was saying you can’t you will surely die, you need to return to
the surface for air and the security of open air. But there was something inside of me asking
me to breathe in deep. As the pressure
from inside of wanting air, I deeply wanted to breathe but couldn’t get over
the fact that if I breathed this in that I could die but on the other
hand…perhaps…just perhaps the voice inside of me was right. I just need to take in a big gulp and just
maybe I developed a new way of breathing in this ocean of grace without me even
realizing it or earning it.
Lord
Give me courage to breathe you in a new way and live in the deeper ocean of
grace. Give me strength to abandon the
things that need abandoned.
