Fundraising has not been easy to say the least. It has left me with many questions over the past months about my faith and if I am truly called to missions. I was so caught up in checking the progress bar and trying to do things my way that I pushed God’s way off to the side. If I am being honest I was doing it my own way out of not having trust that God would provide (dumb I know). This left me feeling empty and completely defeated. Last week I was ready to call it off and tell everyone that I wouldn’t be able to go. Then out of nowhere I got a phone call from my older sister saying she wanted to help by donating, even though she couldn’t earlier when I got accepted. All of a sudden I felt a little hope, but then one of my friends from North Carolina shared my trip with a friend and he messaged me. Keep in mind that I didn’t know him at the time, but he went on to tell me that he felt led to donate. He continued by saying how the Lord told him how much I am going to be used during this trip for healing and so much more. At this point I felt that God was telling that when we do things our way it only leads to a dead end disappointment. When we listen to God and follow through with Him by having faith He will always provide. I have a lot left to get before we are fully funded, but i truly believe that God will provide in ways I can’t even imagine! We have to let go and let God do what only He can do. If you have made it this far I thank you for reading! I will keep everyone posted as I learn more about what God is teaching me!
