This past Saturday, the day before I left Colorado, I went skydiving. WOW, it was such an amazing experience. 10/10 recommend.
I honestly wasn’t really scared, even on the plane ride up, I was mainly just excited. But as the guy who was strapped on my back scooted closer and closer to the open door I started to feel fear overwhelm me. Holy Guacamole, I am about to jump out of a plane and fall through the sky. And as I squatted right in front of the open door I was scared but knew there was no backing out now. So I just went for it. I made that courageous step out of the airplane and it was one of the most freeing, exciting, beautiful and exhilarating experiences of my life.
I realized later that night as I was trying to fall asleep that my skydiving experience explained perfectly how I feel about The World Race. I have had moments of fear but for the most part I have been so excited! Ready to go and serve the Lord. But as I am coming closer and closer to it becoming reality Ive gotten so overwhelmed. Scared to take that last step “out of the plane”. I KNOW that the Lord is going to move in this upcoming season, I KNOW it will be exciting and freeing and exhilarating and beautiful. I KNOW that this is where the Lord has called me.
Its easy to get overwhelmed. 9 months is a long time to not have my own bed & a warm shower. A long time to go without my mom taking care of me when Im sick, missing christmas, my nephews 2nd birthday, and just everyday comforts like air conditioning and Chick-Fil-A. I don’t want to say goodbye to all my friends and sweatshirts and have to reapply for college. How am I suppose to pack my life for 9 months in a backpack? What if everyone forgets about me when Im gone? And on and on and on. But when these thoughts flood my mind I know its the enemy trying to stop me, confine me and destroy my passion for missions. But my calling outweighs my comfort. The calling to be a disciple to all nations outweighs the materialistic things that I will miss. I am so excited to continually lay things at the foot of the cross and grow in my relationship with Jesus. Luke 9:23-24 ” Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it.”
P.S. I am currently in Atlanta for some final training before we head out. I fly out for Cambodia on Wednesday. Please be praying for the remainder of my funds ($4,196) to be raised. Thank you for those of you who are covering me in prayer and/or have given financially. All of your support means so much to me!!!!
