My head is reeling from these last 10 days. As I get in my first hot shower after returning from Training Camp, I don’t even know where to begin on explaining what I have gone through. These last days have completely, irrevocably and drastically altered the path my life was leading to. It has transformed me from the inside out and I am forever changed. I currently do not have the brain capacity to go through how I’ve been stretched spiritually, mentally, emotionally, but I needed to make sure I spoke about last night as soon as I could.
I stood in a crowd of wonderful men and women surrounding a kiddie pool filled with cold hose water. One after another people came forth and took a step into that water in order to declare their love for God before dunking their heads and taking a breath into their next and most important chapter in life. There was cheering and hugging and tears and I stood there overwhelmed by the genuine love filling that space. I felt myself shaking and a feeling in the inner most part of my core saying ‘get in the water’ and ‘it’s time’. When there was a lull in the cheering and the congratulations, I stepped forward.
I took my first step into that kiddie pool and turned around to seek out who would help me through this. Meredith stood there with such joy in her face. She stepped in and we kneeled into the water. I shook with excitement and fear in front of these men and women who over the course of 10 days have become my family. These brothers and sisters in Christ stood around me as I declared I was done waiting and done making excuses as to why I wasn’t ready to be all in. I was done telling myself I wasn’t ready and I was done living a mediocre life when I knew there’s been so much more waiting for me with God. Meredith dunked my head under and when I came up it was as if taking a breath for the very first time. I couldn’t control how overwhelmed I was and was met with cheers, hugs and more love than anyone could ever ask for. How lucky am I to not only do life with God, but also do life with these brothers and sisters of mine.
My life is forever changed. God is so incredibly and ridiculously good.
