Wow. God is so cool. Last night at debrief we had worship, not your typical worship but one where everyone puts their headphones in and blasts worship music and is free to just worship how they want. For a second, if you removed your headphones and looked around, you heard some pretty horrendous noises, but all together it was a beautiful thing. Absolutely beautiful. People were dancing, yelling, sitting, and running. Whatever praises Him they were doing it. You felt the overwhelming power of God and I had chills the entire time (yes, even in the Cambodian heat).
That night I had to listen to music on my computer and the second we got to the roof (where wifi doesn’t exist) I realized I had no worship music downloaded. Luckily through different playlists I had 4ish songs downloaded. As they shuffled through I was fully expecting to have to reshuffle and start them over when I heard a new song starting to play. A song I had never heard by an artist I don’t know on a random playlist that was not downloaded. As the words began I was an awe. The lyrics were speaking truth to every struggle and desire I have at this point on the race. These are a few of the verses in the song:
I’ve only seen a glimpse
All I’ve had are moments
It’s enough, oh, it’s enough
I can’t see it all
But the mystery is holy
And I know, there is so much more than this
And I’ve only seen a glimpse
I’ve only seen a glimpse
This hit me hard. There is so much more out there but right now I can’t see it all and that’s ok. As I’m processing I realize this first month was a glimpse. Only a very small portion of what He has in store and I struggle with that. Why would He only want to show me a glimpse of His glory when He could reveal it all now? I thought my glimpse into the Kingdom during this first month wasn’t enough. I asked for more but didn’t always receive it.
However, He’s given me this glimpse to have a stronger desire to pursue the entire picture. To not settle for only a little. Instead of surrendering 50%, surrendering all of it. A glimpse is more than enough right now. It’s in these glimpses where I’m constantly amazed and overwhelmed by His never ending love. I see His heart for the people here and how it breaks it that most of them don’t know Him. As I keep leaning into Him the more He will reveal to me. A glimpse is enough because it only takes a spark to start a wildfire just as a glimpse into the kingdom is holy enough by itself.
I’ve only seen a glimpse for now and the mystery in the rest is holy. He’s trusted me with a glimpse and the further I lean into Him, the more He will show me. If all I ever see is glimpses, I’ll be happy with that and if you’ve seen a glimpse, you’d be OK with it too.
thanks for reading
-grace
