So. Here I am. The excitement building. Plans in the making. Relationships forming. Count down to training camp. Count down to July when I launch. Mentally preparing for all my fundraising and equipment needing to be bought. E-mail received. Everything changes.
I’m not going to lie, when I received that e-mail telling me that my original route did not have enough people signed up to launch in July on route 5, I was extremely disappointed. I had already formed friendships with the people I was going to be spending the next year with. I had already made plans for training camp. I had already begun to learn about the countries I was traveling to. I was sure! I was sure I was leaving in July. I was sure that this was the route I was supposed to be on. I was sure that these people were the ones I was ready to take this grand adventure with. I was sure in my sureness!! After hearing that news, I wasn’t. I wasn’t sure which direction to take. I wasn’t sure what route to choose. I wasn’t sure if I should still leave in July. I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to start over and meet a whole new World Race family. Why did this happen?? I was so SURE!
As I look back on the week I found out I would have to be making changes to my plans, I have to kind of laugh at myself. This is like Christianity 101, Grace. I was placing my confidence in all the securities I thought I needed. 1 Corintians 10:12 says, “Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall.” Oh I thought I was standing alright. I was standing smack dab in the middle of MY surety.
So now here I am after all my decisions were made, (I have officially switched to route 3 which launches in September) and I am reminded that I am not called to find surety in myself- because I will fall. I am called to find surety in the Father. I don’t know why my route was disbanded. I don’t know why I felt led to change my route to September. I don’t know why I don’t get to meet some of the amazing people I thought I would be sharing my journey with.
What I do know is that among all of these things I am unsure about, I am sure in the Father. I am sure that He has sent His Holy Spirit to guide me. I am sure that “all things work together for good”. I am sure that “letting go and letting God” is one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.
-As for Route V (5) that was disbanded, even though we all had to choose our separate routes, there will always be a special place in my heart for “the route that neVer was”. <3
