Training camp has been an amazing experience. God has rocked my
world in new revelations of himself this week. Growing up in my safe,
suburban church, I was not exposed to a lot of the elements of God that
are discussed in Scripture, specifically Acts and the Holy Spirit’s
presence throughout.
While I have always believed in the Holy Spirit, I encountered it
in a new way this week. For the first time in my life, I felt confident
that it was the Holy Spirit’s presence in the room and not just the air
conditioning.
This was an answer to a prayer I had been praying all week. One of
the choices they asked us to make this week was to only sing songs if
we meant the words. The song Hosanna by Hillsong is one that has
challenged me from the first time I heard it, and was one we sang this
week. This song is a powerful declaration.
When I first heard it last January 2008, the lines that really stuck with me were the following:
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from earth into
Eternity
The
prayer that I had been praying was that God would break my heart for
what breaks His. He has definitely been answering this, but singing
this song has been asking for other things too, like living a life
completely for God and in light of eternity, and opening my eyes to
things unseen.
I thought this line meant that I would be more sensitive to other
people and their needs. But I think it also is an element of seeing
more of who God is and how He acts–to not limit God to the box I have
created but to be open to see Him moving in new ways.
I am still in the process of processing this week. More to come.
