During this w
eek God has changed my
life in ways that I didn’t think were really possible for me. I was always
resistant to change in the way that I worship God, skeptical of those who spoke
in tongues and run and danced around like a bunch of crazy people. Everyday so
far we have spent SEVERAL hours in worship, which has been really weird for me
since I am use to just praising God one hour at a time. My third night here my
skepticism was pushed aside when God moved me through this worship. While many
people were dancing, jumping, screaming, speaking in tongues, and singing at
the top of their lungs I stood quietly at the edge of the pavilion looking into
the woods and searching for God. Where in the world was he in this mess of
madness?
I’m not sure how it happened, but
before long I found myself standing amongst everyone, raising my hands and
swaying my hips to the music. A girl than approached me laid her hands on me
and began singing the Lord’s praises in my ear, she kept telling me to make a
noise, sing out, God wants to hear that beautiful voice he gave me, it fills
him with great joy. I was very resistant to her plea and kept my mouth shut
tightly, but it didn’t take long before the Holy Spirit showed up and my lips
burst open and a beautiful noise came out of my mouth, I was singing praises to
the Lord and the Holy Spirit was moving in me he was speaking to me. A man then
came and placed his hand on my forehead and began speaking in tongues, I have
no idea what he was saying, but before I knew it tears were pouring down my
face and God was speaking to me, reassuring me that this is where I belong and
that he will take care of me and all of my needs. The girl then prophesied over
me telling me how my heart was now fully open to Lord, I was no longer afraid
to speak in God’s name, but I was there to sing and shout his praises for all
to hear, and to bring onto the nations.
Ever since this things have not
been the same at all. I have learned how to truly put my full trust in God. I
don’t have to worry about anything anymore because God will take care of me. I
am now here to declare that Jesus is Lord, and to shout his name and truth of
his love from the mountain tops. In this next year God is going to use me in
crazy, scary, amazing ways and I am so excited to see what he has in store for
me. I know that this trip is going to be extremely hard; it’s not going to be
some exciting adventure, or comfortable vacation. I will be stretched and
changed and I am so excited to praise the Lord through my works.
