How did life get so crazy?
I never thought I’d miss school so stinking much! I feel like the weeks are just passing me by and I’m not accomplishing anything. It seams so recent that I began applying for The World Race, and now it’s June and I still have a good $16,000+ to raise. At first I wasn’t nervous at all about fundraising. Now I’m beginning to feel a little icky about it. At first I didn’t think I would have any guilt asking for donations. Now, asking friends and family to pay me to travel the world for 11 months gives me an icky feeling. It doesn’t really seam fair. I feel like I’m asking for money for an 11 month vacation. Granted, I know it will be a lot of hard work and hardly a vacation, but I still can’t shake this guilt. Plus, I feel like I can’t even take time in my day to reach out to my potential donors and really connect with them and answer their questions. I just feel so busy!!! How do I slow down? How do I say no to things so that I can have more time for myself and for this mission?
My good friend Megan is now an expert at saying no. She always tells me “Gill, you need to just take care of yourself! Don’t feel guilty about saying no”. She’s so proud of me when I don’t show up to social events (which doesn’t happen very often, and when it does it’s usually because I’m replacing it with a different social event). I just feel such a need to keep up with my social circles and make time for the people I care about. But the problem is that I care about too many dang people! How do I balance it all? I struggle to say no because I don’t want to let anyone down. I want them to know they are a priority to me and I just don’t want to miss out on life! I fill my schedule up and leave little to no time for myself and for God… Maybe God is waiting for me to carve out some time for Him before He starts providing? Maybe He wants me to slow down before He allows the funds to roll in?
One thing is certain; I value my peeps and I want them to feel the gratitude I have for their prayers and donations. I need to take time to reach out to them and connect with them. I don’t want them to feel taken advantage of and, therefore, I need to make sure they see me taking more time for them… which probably means I need to start saying no to things.
God, help me to slow down. I desire more time for my peeps AND for you. Thank you for this opportunity and please don’t let it pass me by.
Amen
