Thank you, Jesus, for the generosity of others that made it possible to reach my goal on time!
Thank you for stretching me in an area where I need help: finances.
Thank you that even though you told me to wait, you still had a plan and were fighting on my behalf.
Thank you for reassuring me that this is what you want for me.
Thank you for not making this journey easy.
A few days before the $10,000 deadline, I was still a couple thousand dollars short. Naturally- I freaked. But unnaturally this time- I came to God first. 1 Peter 5:7 says, “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”
He said, “Just wait, but don’t be inactive.” Umm, okay? So, I launched my t-shirt design and leather bracelets, posted my color-a-country, basically did everything I could think of to give people a variety of opportunities to engage with me. And guess what? He showed up big! Just like He said.
I had somehow taken on the belief that waiting looked lazy and like you didn’t even try. How could I just hand something over to God if I had the capability to do it myself? Except I don’t.
Since training camp, I’ve been slowly tearing down walls of binary beliefs that served me well in childhood when my brain could only think concretely, black and white was easier to navigate. Moving into this adulting era- I’m learning that there are grey areas with lots of depth and complexity.
I know brains continue to develop well into a person’s 20s but obviously haven’t experienced it completely for myself yet on a cognitive level. BUT OH MY GOSH my brain is so cool! Just these past few weeks it seems like my brain has leveled up giving me access to new fun brain things. Thank you Jesus for physical and spiritual growth!
Stay tuned for more- Gemma out!
