god is good. He really,really is. He is way more paitent with me then any human. he provides and works with me in ways that i would never have guessed. everytime i try to hide from him or pretend everything is ok, he draws me gently to my knees and draws what is in the dark out into the light.
I'm not sure where i'm going to live for these last less then two months; god has told me there will be a place for me, i just don't get to know where or when yet. i'm not sure if i'll make rent this month;god laughed and said you are less then four dollers behind, how do you think that would not be taken care of?!
there has always been grace and mercy in my life;people i barely know have offered to comp my meals; waiters at reesturants i don't think i frequent thst often have offered to put my meal on the house;people i didn't think i was that close to or even my close friends and family have been generous with thier time and money.God really is great.
everytime the devil tries to break me;tie my worth to my bank account or my past or current failures god reminds me of reality: he lets me cry out my frustrations and reveal them as lies. he reminds me of all the good he does and how me much he watches out for and loves me. he reminds me that nothing i do can seperate us and nothing i do can erase jesus's sacrifice on the cross.
he will provide eveything. i just need to be still and know he is.
i can't wait for the world race to begun, but he wants me in the present; there is still much work he wants me to do and many things he wants to show me.
i know you all pray for and love on me. would you all mind extending that to my squadmates and adventures in missions as a whole?
thank you all so much. i am grateful that you guys and gals take the time to read this and i hope to see some of you before i leave and if i don't, there are always other ways to keep in touch!
hooray, he is good!
