Who Has The Wheel!?

So, lately to be real honest with you I have been thinking about home a lot.  We have 1-½ months left, and it’s kind of freaking me out.  I will be returning home from the adventure of a lifetime, and stepping into a new season of my life.  But what does that mean or look like?  I have to say that I am a little nervous, anxious and unsure of what is next for my life.

There are things that I would like to do and desires that I have, but is that the right thing to do or the right path to take?  I don’t know!  We all know the verse Jeremiah 29:11, "for I know the plans I have for you……"  Of course God knows everything about my life and what His plan and purpose are that He has for me, but how do I figure out what that is?  I wish that God could just tell me take this route, this job, or I want you to do this and not that because that will be the best for you.  I wish God was just like a GPS system in a car, turn here, don’t go this way, and stop here.  This is a hard thing to comprehend sometimes, it’s just like, "Father tell me, and I will do it."

But in all actuality you want to drive your own car, do what you want to do or go where you want to go.  So, you want Him to direct you, but you want your hand on the wheel too, just in case it’s not the way you want to go.  How can you be a passenger and a driver at the same time?  You have to choose.  The World Race was not in the plans for my life, I was supposed to be moving up in my career, married, living in a house and the whole American dream plan.  But God had a different direction for my life, and I am glad that I let Him lead and take the wheel in my life, but now that this is over, it’s like I kind of want to put my hand back on the wheel.  Not because I don’t trust Him, and know He has the best plans for me, I believe that!  I know I am not the only one, but sometimes you can say it, know it, but still there is a little doubt or fear in your heart, which is definitely not from GOD!  So, pray for me!

I am finding comfort in the verse 1 Corinthians 13:13, Faith, Hope, and Love is what remains.  Whenever I feel uneasy, fearful, or faced with anxiety, I know I always have these things to lean on.  It’s my faith that gives me FREEDOM!  Knowing that I am free from condemnation and can rest in the trust of my Father!  Walk not in the things I can see, but can’t see, meaning that I can confidently put ALLLL my TRUST in God to guide me throughout my life.  I know my Father is awesome and I recognize His nature and reputation, I stand on His truth and promises for me.  The "Hope” portion is the anchor of my soul, it’s firm and non-wavering!  I wait in anticipation for my Bridegroom, I have hope in knowing God’s work will be completed and His glory will be fulfilled.  And, oh, that wonderful L.O.V.E word!  Which God says is the most important of them all; God is LOVE!  I know He loves me!  Love fulfills all these things, and leads these things.  Without Love, you won’t have Faith, and without Faith you won’t have Hope, Love is Everything!

Those words are coming from my FATHER, the one that knows me better than anyone! THAT’S CRAZY! He has my entire life in His hands and He only wants me to trust Him with it.  So I don’t need to worry.  We may not understand why things happen in our lives, or why God allowed certain things to happen, but we can rely on His words when He says them.

So if you are ever talking to me and I get on a Ga’Nene tangent about my future, plans, etc., say,” Ga’Nene buckle up and relax!  Let Him drive!”