The list could go on and on of the things Hailey and I have talked about in the last 6 months together but there’s one thing that she’s said that I continually go back to.
“It’s amazing how secure you are in peoples love”
I never would have ever thought of that if she hadn’t said it and it’s certainly something I would have never thought of, of myself. We’ll take Hailey and I’s friendship as an example, we’re very good friends and I know her heart and she knows mine very well. I’m not afraid to go to her with anything because she knows my heart and I know bottom line that she loves me. There no hesitation with trust because I KNOW she loves me. I don’t take her pushing me as offense because again I know her heart and again I KNOW she loves me. I don’t fear not being enough because I know in her heart, friendship isn’t what I can do for her. So we get the picture.
We had this conversation a couple months ago and every couple weeks the Lord drops that sentence back into my heart, “it’s amazing how secure you are in peoples love” and each time I think deeper and deeper about what that actually means, to be “secure in love”. For me I think the bottom line is before I take offense, choose to not trust, or before I let any fear creep in about the relationship I kinda give myself a reality check and evaluate their heart for who I know them to be and that becomes a lense of how I view, respond, and love them.
Today, the Lord dropped it in my heart again and as I was going down my little rabbit trails of seeing it in different ways conviction stepped in when I heard the Lord say “how secure are you in Me, your Heavenly Fathers love”. I literally got goosebumps again while typing this. My initial thought was “God, I am SO SECURE. I love you, I know you love me unconditionally” the whole nine yards. Then I began to actually think about it and compare it to my friendships, I don’t fear the future of Hailey and I’s friendship, or fear doing something to mess it up I know she’s going to be a constant friend because I know she loves deeply and loyally, that’s her heart. I began to think about how there are times I still fear the future, that I won’t be enough, that I’ll lack and I realized that there are times I’m not fully secure in the Love that holds my future, which is by the One who loves me more than any person could ever. Who’s heart is the blueprint for all security. Why the heck am I not trusting Him with it all, all the time. Why do I still hesitate to give Him the parts in me that I don’t like?
So what does being secure in love with Christ look like for me. I think it’s making, knowing His heart more an everyday journey. I’ve gotten this far because I do know the Lords heart, and I strive to see the heart of people because that’s how the Lord sees them. I’ve taken many leaps of faith in my journey with the Lord and I think being unhesitatingly secure in Christ love is an everyday leap. To lay down that hurt, to give Him your future every single day, and sometimes it’s even a leap to accept that the Lord tells you that you are enough.
REMEMBER YOU ARE SO LOVED!
