“Whoever desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me…”
Mark 8:34
Today, I was supposed to make a deposit of $6350, and I didn´t make it… because I was expecting a financial miracle from God.
Today, I realized that I wasn´t going to receive that miracle in my life right now. Today I felt disappointed, angry, and sad with God and people around me. As I continue living my day, I received not dollars but a slap on my face, soul and thoughts.
When God called me, he didn´t call a part of me! He asked for everything, and all this fundraising time, I have been waiting to keep some dollars for my future, so I could feel in control of it; but God doesn´t work like that… he works day by day, his mercies are new every day and all I have to do is give him all… I have to be is “all in” in his purpose, nothing for me…all for His Glory! I am second in all.
Today isn´t over, and I have the chance to lift up my eyes to the one that is in control of all my lacks and needs and LIFE!
No matter if the people around me/ near me says: “no”, “I can´t help you”, “I don´t want to commit myself to pray for you”, “I don´t have any money for your mission trip”, “I have other priorities”… GOD HAS SEND ME TO THE NATIONS, HE HAS BEEN WITH ME ALL THESE MONTHS AND HAS MADE MIRACLES TROUGHT PEOPLE I WOULDN´T IMAGINE, HE HAS SURPRISED ME AND I BELIEVE HE HAS MORE FOR ME AND THE PURPOSE THAT HE PUTTED IN MY HEART.
And even when I hurts I say:
Today I deny myself, so I am able to come after my LORD.
Today I take up my cross and follow HIM.
