When I first started fundraising, it was sort of overwhelming. Not in a bad way, but in a REALLY good way. I announced my plans for next year and how God called me to them and in just a few days, I had lots of people offer to help me fund this ministry. I was surprised because I heard of all the difficulty it would be to fundraise and get support. I was overwhelmed by God and the people He brought forward.
It was easy for me to see God’s faithfulness and plan.
However, this past week, I have become a little discouraged with the process. Fundraising became a little more mentally straining for me and boy, has it been hard to see God’s faithfulness and trust in His plan.
Because of this process, it has been brought to my attention again that I cannot do it alone. This process is going to take hours and hours of crying out to God, stepping out of my comfort zone, sharing raw moments in the journey, and being real with what He has called me to. AND, at the same time, I have realized the importance of DRAWING NEAR. The closer I am to God, the harder it will be for the devil to tell me my efforts aren’t good enough or that no one is going to want to support me.
I need to trust in the ultimate plan and fight for that. I cannot remain in my comfortable place any longer. If I am going to fight for trust in God, I need to get out of my usual boundaries to see His faithfulness and His plan.
God has SO much to teach me during this journey.
This week, it has been ultimate trust and drawing near.
I have realized that if I want things to go my way, they will not be as fulfilling as if I just followed God and let Him lead the way.
“If you long for me like I long for you, you will be satisfied” (Bill Johnson, a prophetic word from God).
-Gabby
