Soooo I must admit that since getting accepted to the World Race I’ve been in kind of an emotional roller coaster!
Some days I cannot contain the joy and excitement that swell up inside as I look forward to this life-transforming adventure, because this is my greatest expectation, that not only will I be used as a tool to reach the poor and needy souls in this world, but I truly believe that through this I will come to discover who I am, what purpose God created me for…because between me and you, I’ve been through the whole identity crisis shindig and now it is time for this matter to be settled once and for all.
And then other days I hit the all time lows as deadlines loom ahead, fundraising turns into a sombering task and it just seems like no matter how hard I try, nothing is happening.
Is this really you God??
All my carnal eyes can focus on are the realities of my current challenges and the great task that is ahead. This is not just about going to 11 countries because I want to have some fun, if that were the case I could think of some more convenient and cheaper ways to do that lol. But this is something bigger than I and as I meditate upon it I know that this is God, because me…I wouldn’t do this, I enjoy the comforts of a predictable and orderly life way too much. So here I am…never say never huh lol
But before my pity party began as scheduled, the Holy Spirit reminded me of something that happened with Jesus in the book of John 5. Sometimes I read the Bible and it cracks me up how smooth Jesus is, I like where Him and his disciples were caught in the middle of a storm at sea and we find Him asleep on a pillow while they were all freeking out, lol smooth.
Yes indeed Abba always has a way to put me back in order and this time it came from John 5…
Remember to just keep on wigglin’, check out what I mean in part deux of this blog entry 😉
