It all started one night about a month ago, I was feeling frustrated and upset regarding the course that my life was taking, more frustrated that I could not figure out what Abba was doing so I cried and in between the sobs asked Him “What do you want me to do?”
Up until then I had been asking the wrong questions, casting my cares on Him but only to quickly gather up my baggage trying to find my own way. There was a restlessness inside of me and I had finally ran out of plans A-Z. “Abba, what do You want?” I asked once again, but this time not angry or frustrated but in humility, a broken spirit and a contrite heart He will not despise. It wasn’t my life any longer and I needed to get that or else I would be spending the rest of my life talking about the promised land as opposed to living in it. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me of the previous week when I was speaking with someone at Michaels and our conversation led to this person giving me a note about a missions organization. I politely accepted the note but had no intentions in checking it out. I responded to the nudging of the Holy Spirit “Really? Is this really you Lord?” and after arguing, trying to figure out if this was God or not, I took out the note that I had shoved in my book and there it was written in a blue marker Adventures In Missions and it came to my mind how this same girl specifically told me to check out The World Race.
So I did, of course after more arguing that this could not possibly be what God had intended for me, not that I did not want to do the work of the Lord, ever since rededicating my life to Him all my desires have been transformed to be about Him, but could this be the step He wanted me to take?
The answer is yes, or else I wouldn’t even have applied to this program and only by His grace accepted and be sitting here blogging about it…me, blogging! Yes Jesus!
I feel like I won the lottery and my prize is journeying to God knows where, eating God knows what, totally out of my comfort zone, away from friends and family, stepping out on my own into a mystery…into my destiny
Oh yes this is way better than the lottery…so here I go
