“Be anxious for nothing…”
Philippians 4:6
So Abba’s got a lot to say to us in His Word about the worriers and overthinkers and yes I am one of those. I’m always thinking about something so my mind is constantly running to the point that I literally have to tell my mind to shut up and be still (but seriously, I really do this…I guess my fellow squad mates will be seeing this in action lol)
I overanalyze to the point that there is nothing to analyze and leaning on my own understanding is truly challenging for me not to do. Yes…I think way too much and my thinking face can testify of this. The thing is because I am always thinking and trying to figure things out it is very easy for me to get worried and anxious about stuff because my thinking does not provide me with any solutions but only even more to worry about! Listen, if nobody else needed Jesus to do all that He did, I sure did because, me + myself +I = Destruction!
So this is what Abba told me one day when I was on my mental marathon, of course trying to figure out something. I heard Him say “You gotta trust Me to take care of you, without you“
And most recently I again heard Him remind me of this very same word…I guess He saw right through my “Ok Lord I trust You…let go and let God.. I surrender all to You” declarations that so many of us make but don’t really follow through on it…or maybe I’m just talking about myself…
Keeping it real, a lot’s been going on, a lot of pressure, emotional rollercoasters, doubts, confusions and especially the temptation to just give up on this. It is as if me responding in obedience to God about this mission has unleashed all of hell’s fury in every areas that concern me. Not suprised, just kind of wishing that it wasn’t an avalache of trouble lol.
But even in the midst of the battle that I am smack dab in the middle of, I can already taste the sweetness of victory, just gotta get past the sourness…like the sweet and sour candies, what are they called, sweet tarts? Yup gotta go through the sour to get to the sweet, but believe me the sweet…is SWEET!
Right now I’m learning and continuing to learn that I need to trust Abba, and trust Him completely, not just say it but actually let go…let go of my whole self to Him, because He’s got a better hold on things than I do. I don’t know how things are going to work out with provision for this mission, with things at home or even with my own messes but I can trust that He is able to take care of it all
A prayer request I have…I humbly ask for God’s strength, because where we are weak, He is strong!
Much love, you are all in my prayers <3
