“The heart of a man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” (Proverbs 16:9) The meaning of this scripture has honestly been coming to reality to me more so in the past couple of months than ever.I knew what it meant before, but to actually live it out is a different story. So looking back in my life a couple of months ago and looking at where I am at now is something that I never planned and thought of. Oh in the small brain of mine, I had thought and pictured my self in the middle of the missions trip I had longed,waited and prayed for. This would have been month four of my world race missions trip.
There were some paper works that needed to be finished that take longer than I had expected so long story short, I wasn’t able to go on the missions trip with my team in January of 2016. I was not totally broken hearted over it, because I trust and respect God’s timing in every single event in my life. In the mean time I was trying to seek God’s plan for my life. Every day I tried to die to self and seek Jesus in my everyday, because my life is hidden in him.”For you have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God.”(Colossians 3:3). In that time of stillness and surrender, I started finding Jesus in the people he was putting in my life from my four amazing roomates to the mentors I started building relationships with and more family and and friends. I started to see how they each had a unique and personal relationship with Jesus. I saw how he was something different for everyone. He was the father for the one’s without a father, He was the family for the one’s abandoned, He was the leader for the lost, He was the strength for the weak and the Joy for the broken hearted. I realized then that just how little I knew about Jesus,even after the craziness of my life and testimony. My heart longed to know him more and desired to sit at his feet and learn about his heart through his word.
Before I knew it, I was at a Bible College in California. I Came to the school not thinking of staying, with enough clothes and money enough for a week of stay in California. God Provided the rest. I am now on month three of Bible college and I can’t even begin to explain how much it has blessed me and grew my faith and trust in the Lord.
My hearts deepest desire is to live in the will of the Lord. This season of life has thought me what it truly means to live for Jesus and what it means to surrender. A couple of months ago I was happily raising support to go on the missions trip God has called me to, to go tell people about Jesus and my experiences with him, and to go pour out. Now I am in southern California getting poured in to, getting stretched, growing, and getting molded in to the very woman God created me to become. “So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.” Ephesians (3:17-19)
So where does this leave you with your missions trip you ask? Well let me just say that out of all the inner changes that has been happening in my life, my heart has grown double the size for missions. I can’t imagine my life as anything other than a missionary forever. Wherever God puts me either for a season or for life, I want to preach the gospel and I want to see saved souls. I want to see a changed community. I want to worship with the changed community. God has given me a boldness that I have never had before. I want to use that boldness to better serve the Lord. I want my life to count. I want to serve the Lord for the rest of my life. It is my hearts desire to be able to go on the world race in God’s timing. God willing, it is still the plan for me to go on the world race in His timing. I am willing to go where ever he calls and takes me. At any given time I am ready to leave everything I know (with the help of the Holy spirit) to go preach the gospel. Until that day comes to where I go away to different nations to tell people about Jesus or to encourage those walking with Jesus, I will serve him from where I am at.
If you remember to, please pray for me that I always stay in the will of the Lord. Thank you for praying for me and for investing in me. Thank you for your supports. Everything that was donated to me for the world race is in my account on this page. I have some donation Checks that I haven’t put in this account yet, that I will. Thank you again so much for your love and support. blessings
