A LEAP OF FAITH
What is exactly the World Race ?
What is a Missionnary ?
Which kind of work will you do ?
Who are you going to be team up with ?
Who is ”Adventures in Missions” ?
Why go to the far end of the world for a mission trip ?
Why go with a christian and not a catholic organization ?
Why quit your high end job for the unknown ?
How will you gather the money required ?
How will you pay your debt ?
How can leave your family that’s needs you to be with strangers ?
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I DON’T KNOW AND IT DOESN’T MATTER !
Shutting Him Up
All my life I have been the one in control. All my life, I took responsibility for everything. For the past 7 years I have heard a voice inside of me, and I have shut her down. Was I a catholic ? Was I a Christian ? Was I spiritual ? Not a single second. Pure Atheist, Scientist and Business (I should add egocentric).
Controlling my destiny, in charge of my dreams, result-oriented, success-driven, all of these summarized my way of thinking. You have to learn many languages, you have to be strong, you have to get your MBA, you need to be in top 5% of your promotion, you need to have that Big Paying Everyone Wants Job, you need the status, you need to prove yourself to the others, prove that I AM SOMEONE….
Where does that lead me … yes I got it all, all I wished and worked for, yet I was empty. I was sick from the inside, sick of having meaningless goals. My eyes were wide open but Blind, my heart was feeling the pain but I kept freezing it with adventure, party and girls, my brain knew that there was something more, something calling me, but created a safe box, locked that voice inside and kept going. God will not interfere with MY goals, MY ambition, MY vision, my my my my my my my ….
That sickness, that disease, that infection, that inner pain gradually grew stronger, stinker, molder, and last year even my brain was so much infected that I broke down.
The Revelation
This is when I started listening. I was down the barrel, I let go of my guard, put down my shields and I heard the voice. A smooth, lovely and sense worthy voice telling me to take a week off and go in Agapetherapy. I surrendered and I listened. In that week, last September, my whole life, conception of life, desires, feelings, comprehension and energy all evolved. God came and healed me. The Hand of God came into my body, my heart, my organs and just like a gardener snatch weed, God Hand tear out my inner self from my own demons I nurtured all these years. As a good father, He came as the Healer and in one instant changed my whole destiny. I felt to the ground, powerless, healed but injured and exhausted from the experience, my legs were wobbling, my energy was all gone, I felt like dying on the floor and when I gathered enough energy I slowly opened my eyes, which took all my forces. I felt Peace in my heart, I felt Loved, I felt His Love….
I could tell you how in that same day he saved my brother from his knee injury and his alcoholism, I could tell you about the women at that same retreat that got her back healed, and about all the others present that healed deep internal wounds that day, but this not the point.
I started listening, I surrendered myself to him and ONLY THEN He came. Why does so much people doesn’t have faith, why do they ask themselves why He doesn’t come and present himself to them. Why is it always the vulnerable persons that found God through terrible adversity. The answer is simple. God is knocking the door of your hearts, but we keep the door locked with our own chains. We can only hear a whisper from the outside of that door. But for most of us, It is only when all has failed, all his lost that we lower our shields, break our chains, stop talking and start listening. Then we hear that whisper, which wouldn’t be heard before because of all of the noise of our own voice. So we unlock that door and see who’s there waiting, waiting all along, waiting all that time to see you and tell you … I Love You, You Are My Son and I Am Your Father.
A New Day Has Come
Since that day, your priority changes, when faced with a hard decision, you still raise the pros and cons, listen to your inner self, but a part of you want to know what the whisper wants to tell you. That whisper grows stronger, you can hear Him clearly and you start to listen because you know that He knows best.
Why Am I in the World Race, because I listen to the whisper. I felt the love, the desire, the call to follow that whisper into that new path. It is a Leap of Faith in which I can Trust Him with all of my heart because I am where I belong, in the path that He wants for me. From now on, all I can do is Listen to God’s Will.
Show me Thy Will, And Thy Will Be Done.
