In less than 2 months I graduate. I’m finished. For 13 years I have woken up to head off to school for 6 hours. Now it’s over and the page has turned, the final page to my chapter. Now I must begin a new one. A chapter I GET TO WRITE! I’m given an opportunity to write and live a beautiful life full of happiness, sadness, love, faith, and life! I make the choices, and could never even begin to describe how scared I am. The world is so big and so complicated and all I can think is “How could I possibly ever survive?!”. Then I think, “I’m crazy! Why would I do this? What kind of person goes to countries they know nothing about with people they have never met?”
I still ask myself these questions. Then I remember that I’m not doing this for myself,
I’m doing it for Him.
He is writing the story and painting the pictures.
Over the past few months I’ve greatly changed in how I view my faith and life. Faith is so beautiful! It is love and what could be more beautiful than that?! I only wish I realized this earlier. For years I rejected church and questioned my Catholic faith, greatly. I thought religion was so “un-cool“ and that people would look at me funny or judge me to be some socially awkward dork. Oh how wrong I was! Faith is cool, it’s the coolest! God is cool and so good! I can honestly say that I have never rejoiced in faith, but now I’ve come to love being a Catholic and going to church, praying. Not that I ever hated it, but I saw it as a routine my parents forced on me. It wasn’t! They were showing me a love that can be given by no one but God himself.
Recently, I have joined a youth group at my church. This is what I consider to be one of the first steps in my new chapter. I’m seeing a side of religion I’ve never seen before and my eyes are opening. Sadly, I haven’t been able to go as much as I’d like to, something I NEED to change. I’m around people my own age that feel the same way as me. People I can actually relate to in terms of faith! When I’m with these people I see a minority, something I shouldn’t see! The world is changing so rapidly and their are millions of people who are losing their faith. Why? How can you lose something like this? Is it that we have lost touch through love of technology and materialistic things? Maybe or maybe not. Do we love ourselves too much or maybe shelter ourselves? We will never truly know. I do know that I want my next chapter to be about saving the spark in the souls of those who have lost their faith in God. I want to start a fire! Let it grow!
Chapter 2:
“People were created to be loved
Things were created to be used
The reason why the world is a chaos
is because
Things are being loved
and people are being used.”
~Unknown
Once upon a future, the spark almost died…
