Let me tell you about my team, Wild Pursuit. We were definitely the misfit group. When they announced our team in Thailand, we definitely knew that out of all the teams, ours made the least sense. But what looks foolish to man is coated with God’s wisdom. This team is a power team. We have all been hurt and felt forgotten. We felt misunderstood and passed over. But we were seen and cared for and thought of by each other. We bonded by our love for Jesus and our ability to love others well. So here is my good-bye to a beautiful season of my life.
To my Wolf Pack,
From Thailand to Nepal, I have tried to express exactly what you meant in my life. At the beginning of the year, speaking with Jesus, I chose the word Freedom to embody my year. Psalm 119:41-48 would be the verse that would describe my year. I wanted to walk in freedom the identity that God had created my to live out, I wanted to live in the freedom of the Word of God, and I wanted to be free to boldly speak on my faith.
Almost halfway through the race, I didn’t feel like I could be further from that freedom. I was a shell of myself, barely holding on to the promises that God gave me. You saw me where I was. You saw the lack of color in my face and the lack of joy in my eyes. And you saw that I needed to be loved.
That’s exactly what you did. You gave me the space to be safe and to heal. You gave God the space to come in and breathe life back into me. You validated my existence and saw me as God sees me. You cared for me and helped the joy of life come back into my life.
No, you aren’t responsible for the joy and freedom that I am living in, but you allowed yourself to be the conduit, the channel, through which God could bring those to me. Your hearts are for God and for His people, so God flowed freely from you. You grabbed my hand, said I deserved more, and brought me into the freedom that God promised me.
Thank you so much for everything each of you are. I have learned so much from each of you individually, but it is through our sisterhood community that the biggest impact has happened. It is through our love for one another and truly preferring one another that we were able to live out our lives as Christians and women of God. You are amazing women, and my life is better because y’all were a part of it.
As we part ways, I have no fear that you will forget me. I do not worry that you only spoke to me because we had to live together. I know that you care about me, even when you aren’t told to. And I hope you know how much I love each of you. Even though I was horrible at going on “dates” with y’all, I am here for you and want to hear about your journeys in Central America.
With Love,
Feliciano, mama wolf
