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As I stumble to create my first blog I am stopped in admiration. I look back at what God has done so far in my life and I am humbled. How blessed am I?…seriously! Before Christ I was just a big ball of damaged goods, worthless and hopeless. I was stuck on my own selfish pride and it was all about me. However, God had something greater in store for me. He called me, by name, and redeemed me. As he washed away my filth he showed me what grace was. At a very early age I could always feel this tug at my heart. As time grew own I began to hand over pieces of my heart. Of course not all at one time because hey I love control too much. Then questions started. Giving up everything I have? What? Why would I want to do that? This stuff is comforting and easy. Why would I want to be challenged or give up something I like? Finally I got it, God called me and rescued me. The darkness was gone and clarity began to arise. I can't get enough of him honestly. Which I must say can easily become an idol. I thought my good works would earn me a spot in heaven. HAHAHA That is so false. No amount of mission trips can save me. God does not need me, at all. Actually he would still be reigning in heaven like a boss without me. I'm seriously nothing, so why did he choose me? He for some reason knew he could be gloried through me. I don't care who you are, that's awesome. He created me for a purpose, to honor and glorify him and I plan on trying to do that every minute I can. As I let go of my selfish heart I get a glimpse at how big God's is. I fall more madly in love with him everyday. Which honestly I didn't know was possible. He has changed my heart and I am living to serve him. I did not choose The World Race, God did for me. In all seriousness it scares me. I mean who wants to leave there nice home with AC, good comfort foods, and friends and family behind? No one without Christ, that's for sure. So why am I going? Because God commands us to do so. Point blank. We are called to go out and make disciples, to give to the poor and needy, to sell what we have and give it to the poor. That's to us all, not just me. I am nothing greater or better than you but God is. He created us for a reason, to work together and to bring glory to his name. Praise him for that and boldly ask him what he wants you to give up or add to your life. However don't do it if you aren't ready for his answer. He will show up and show out. For me it was leaving all that I know behind me and give up a year of grad school, of social gatherings, of teaching gymnastics, of leading children at my church and so forth, to go out and be his hands in feet to those around the world. So I challenge you fill in where I was, take on new roles, ask God if you should be letting go of your idols and following him on some journey. I am ready to embrace this journey he is taking me on and I need your support. Of course with money if you have it but more importantly with prayer. I need it, my parents need it, my sister needs it, my friends need it, the people who are on my team need it, anyone who has to put up with me will need it. That's all for now.
~Faith
