The rain comes, it’s inevitable. The storm rises, darkness covers the land. Broken spirits overshadow the truth. God seems so distant. I search but can not find the light. I am hungry but nothing satisfies. I am empty and nothing fills the void. I am lost and the world keeps spinning. The hole keeps growing deeper. I am trapped, I am confined, and I am hurting. The depths of my heart cry out but I hear nothing. Where are you Lord? Are my works not enough? What have I done? What have I not done? Can I fix it? Lord? Hello? Are you still there?…
The last few months have felt like this. I wanted to give up. Honestly, many times I did. I was weak and drowning. I was stuck in the pit of the enemy’s lies. He had me blinded and upside down. Each day he tied me a little tighter. The chains were heavy and I could barely move. My voice got lower and lower until I could no longer speak. What could I do? Why was nothing working? I was doing all the “right” things. Why was God not there? I ached with shame and embarrassment. I didn’t think this was what it was all about. Why did I sign up for this? I wasn’t ready or prepared.
Beauty comes from the ashes. Flowers bloom in the most obscure places. His voice rattles the grass. The sun dries up all the rain. He pulls me out of the pits. With His mighty hand he crushes the chains. He cuts off the roots and breathes breath into my lungs. He holds me in His arms and wipes away my tears. He firmly speaks life into me. He brushes off the shame and wakes my spirit up.
He calls me beloved and begins dancing with me. He says He is proud of me. I have finally let go. I laid control at the foot of the cross. Surrendering is never easy. Human flesh is our worst enemy. Yet redemption is beautiful. His love has revived me and set me free. I am no longer a slave but a bride. I am no longer a servant but a friend. I am no longer working to achieve freedom because He already gave it to me. I am constantly wrapped in his arms. His plan is far more perfect than anything I could imagine.
Never once did he leave me. He is constant. He is consistent. He allowed these pains to create something even more beautiful. Thankfully He took me to the depths of weakness to show me his glory. His grace is finally sufficient for me.
I am in awe. Praise oozes from my bones. I sit with Him in total adoration of who He is.
I never want to stop dining with you. May this dance never end. Let your love reign with every breath I take. Sweep me off my feet into the great unknown. I love you.
I hold my head up high and walk in the truth of the promises you have spoken over me.
"My grace is sufficient"
