Jeremiah 17:7-8 “But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream It does not fear when heat comes, its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”
A few days ago I was so tired, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I felt completely drained. I decided I needed to spend extra time with The Lord. So, I brought up all of my emotions to The One who always is there to listen.
I was journaling to God, complaining about the current desires of my flesh. Practically whining about what I wanted, because it wasn’t happening.
That’s when God asked me: Am I enough?
Feeling a little caught off guard, because I was expecting to recieve some comfort, and He was honestly pretty blunt with me. Knowing what I should say, I stammered in my journal. God, of course you are… I just…
God said again: If you don’t get what you want – am I STILL enough?
I didn’t understand the weight of His question until today. I couldn’t see how focused I was on these other things, until He confronted me about it.
That’s when I started to ask myself a series of questions:
Is He enough?
Can I honestly answer Him with, a yes… Whatever situation He puts me in, whatever my heart is forced to yearn for, can I tell myself that it is all okay because I have Him?
Can I let go of MY dreams, MY plans, MY hopes, and completely surrender to Him?
Do I want to be WITH Him enough to let go?
Can I trust that He will be enough, even if things don’t look the way I want them to?
Do I trust that He knows me intimately enough, to plan my life better than I could?
I continued to focus on His question: Am I enough?
God, you know the answer to this question. You know that YOU ARE. You know that you are the Great I AM. The all knowing, all powerful, compassionate, magnificent, Friend, Husband, Father.
Yet, you were still asking… You were asking ME… Am I enough, FOR YOU?
This isn’t a question of His identity... This is a question of how I view Him in my heart. This is a question of what I am willing to Trust Him with.
Can I trust God to make me happy?
Can I trust that He knows me well enough to plan my life better than I could?
I feel like I am constantly learning how to Trust God, in so many different ways. Then, when I finally think I am surrendering to His will and trusting Him… Something else pops up, and of course I have a tendency and desire to handle it all on my own.
Today I realized that Trusting God isn’t a one time thing. Trusting God isn’t something you do once, and then it just happens continually. Trusting God is a choice you NEED to make daily. Just like my choice to be joyful, I need to make the choice to trust God daily, and in all circumstances. I need to trust God enough to completely depend on Him.
As I continue to strive towards this surrender, I encourage you to ask yourself the question God asked me: Is He enough? Even if He doesn’t answer your prayer the way you want it, is He enough? Even if you are hurting, is He enough? Even if you don’t understand, is He enough? Through it all, in every circumstance is He enough for you?
Isaiah 40:31 “those who TRUST in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
My internet isn’t good enough for me to watch this video that my Mentor sent me, BUT I know that Brene Brown is phenomenal, and that if you need to know anything about Trust you should watch it.
Brene Brown: The Anatomy of Trust
Www.supersoul.tv/supersoul-sessions/the-anatomy-of-trust
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
