Hey friends,
It’s been a while, but I’m back!
Church this weekend really resonated with me. As the new year is here, and resolutions are being made. I recognize some changes that need to be made in my life. But these are changes that are deeper than simply changing my actions. I need to change what is within before my actions will change long term. It’s hard to admit, but in certain situations I am a control freak and I like things to go my way. And when they don’t I feel like I’m weak and failing. This is the last thing I want. When I’m not in control I experience a type of fear because I have always had to be the one to control and hold everything together between my two families.
I am beginning to realize my job is solely to do my best in every situation because ultimately I have no control of the outcome. My job is not to be the peace maker. I need to give that glory to God. Stepping into this is going to be the hard part. I am fully aware that God is in the midst of everything and He is the only One in control of everything! This alone is comforting. Not only is it important for me to know what the Lord says about me, but it is important that gets applied and that I actually believe these truths in my day-to-day life. God will take away everything that I hold onto to in order to control my circumstances until the only thing I have left is Him to rely on. I am determined to change before this happens to me.
I’m not sure exactly what this transformation will look like, but I know I need to have faith.
Also, Mack Brock performed the song Still In Control at my church and it describes this perfectly (give it a listen)!
Thanks for reading! Come back for more!
P.S. I am still fundraising and any amount helps. If you can donate it would be greatly appreciated.
