Dear God,
This past week has been so difficult. You knew that it was coming. We barely survived as those raging storms and they seem neverending. Where are you taking us just to be blasted with bad news again. I know I shouldn’t complain like this. We are hurting but also know that you are The Most Merciful and I know that you hear us. Collecting every tear that was shead.
Today, God, I’m tired.
Im tired of seeing my friends cry. Im tired of hereing people tell me its okay. I’m tired of faking my smile and pretending that I’m fine at the moment. I’m tired of holding back my tears each day being strong for others. I’m angry at you God. I’m tired of struggling on this battlefield which I don’t know how to win. I’m tired of facing those rejections and disappointments. This 11 months that turned into 2 1/2 months.
So, God, please help us to go through this.
God, I’m scared of what will happen to us in the future. Will we survive this storm? Will we be content with what we have? Will we still be able to help other people? Will we ever be able to finish? What is going on with this world right now? Why did you bring my squad back here?
You’ve shown me how the real world works. You’ve shown me that this world is cruel. You’ve shown me how humans can be so greedy and ungrateful for your blessings. You’ve shown me how so many people are glorifying money and power and health. You’ve shown me they will do anything to get it. You have showed me women that sell there body because they feel it doesn’t belong to them. You showed me little children with no parents and being passed around like there nothing.
You’ve shown me how the majority of society forgets that this life is too short to be lived as someone who is materialistic. You’ve shown me people who make artificial things their ultimate goal and I don’t want to be one of them. God, please make me one of the people whose ultimate goal is to be closer to you each day. To fall on my face everyday for those people that you allowed me to make connections with.
You know what’s best for me and you have planned my life. I believe that you are the best of planners and if you ask me to wait, then it only means that there is more in store for me. Although sometimes it feels unbearable, I know that you will never abandon me, even on the days I have abandoned you.
So, when the time comes, I hope you’ll finally make us understand why you put us in hard situations. I hope you’ll make us find peace with what you decide for BSquad. I hope you’ll make us realize that these storms are one of the signs that you love us and you only want the best for us.
I hope you’ll always be near us whenever we have one of those days. Like these days my squad and I where and still are having we couldn’t carry on and our heart is so torn with anxiety. I hope you give us patience and an infinite belief that eventually, you’ll give us everything in the most mysterious yet beautiful way ever.
God, whatever you give to us in this world, I hope that you’ll always bless us with beautiful patience. May I always believe in You, for indeed, in Your remembrance do hearts find true rest and tranquility.
Be our light amidst all the darkness in this world, God. It’s the only way to become whole once again. Keep us grounded in Your truth, Your love, and Your grace, because I wouldn’t have it any other way.
