Been a while huh?
As you might know, I’ve recently moved to Georgia, and I’m doing this discipleship program with Adventures In Missions called the Center for Global Action. But I’ll tell you about that another time. I wanna talk to you about how God taught me about His provision in the middle of a rough patch.
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So ever since I got back to the States, my bank account has been slowly but steadily dropping. Which is a little scary, but it’s what I expected life would be like after coming off the World Race and going directly into more fundraising life at CGA. The whole time God’s been telling me “Don’t worry…I’ll provide for you.” and I’m like “Okay dude let’s do it.”
Also, since I’ve been home a past debt of mine (which I won’t bother you about) has come up and, since I’m kinda jobless, I haven’t really figured out how I’m gonna take care of that. That’s on top of the ever looming student loans I’ve got from making a “wise” decision for my future and going to college. And my fundraising for CGA has been a struggle for me, because since I got here the funds have kinda stopped coming in, and I’ve got deadlines to meet that are coming up soon. So I’ve got all this debt and financial struggles breathing down my neck and still God keeps saying “I got this. Trust me. I will provide for you” and I’m just sitting here like…
Then it came up that myself and the rest Worship Track were going on something like a field trip to Harrisburg PA. We were invited to do some worship at this awesome place called Spring Gate Vineyard. We didn’t quite know what to expect, as the details of what we’d actually be doing were kinda vague, but we went in with the best intentions we could of spending some time playing worship music for the community there or whatever. So we set out on the long drive from Georgia to Pennsylvania, and once we got there…HOLY CRAP…
The place was GORGEOUS. It was this amazing farm with a big seating area full of people in nice clothes drinking wine and being fancy. As soon as we got there they invited us to do a wine tasting and all of their wines were freaking AMAZING. We spent the weekend playing music for the people who came to Spring Gate, doing worship for the staff, and just hanging out in Harrisburg having an awesome time. So when we first got there, we sat in the little seating area you see in that picture up there, by a fire, drinking expensive wine, listening to live music, and feeling awesome. It was then that I realized what was actually happening in my life at that moment.
Here I am in one of the most financially frustrating times of my life, with all these debts and worries and future plans rampaging around in my head making me crazy; and suddenly I’m in Pennsylvania sitting by a fire drinking wine with some awesome people talking about life and God and having an amazing time. It was just like Psalms 23:5 where it says “You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.“ In the middle of all these “enemies” I’m facing, God gives me a feast of a weekend and says “Don’t worry about all that stuff. I’ve got it. Here’s some wine.” and pours expensive wine in my cup until it’s full and spilling red all over the table. There’s so much of it that it doesn’t matter. My Dad owns the world.
In Matthew 6:25-27 Jesus says “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?” I’ve had the amazing chance to live in a beautiful, million dollar lake house in Georgia, work at an amazing organization that does incredible work all around the world, I’ve gotten to travel the whole way around the freaking Earth, and I’m sitting here wondering when God’s provision was coming…HELLOOOO?!?!?! It was all around me, and I missed it! God has been providing for me in amazing ways, and I took it for granted. God has been amazing to me, and although those enemies are still around messing with my head, I know that God is taking care of me, so I’ve got nothing to worry about.
So when you feel like this…
Just think about all the stuff in your life that should make you feel like this…
God is good, and He’ll take care of you. You just gotta let Him do so.
Count your blessings!
I’m still $1,874 away from being fully funded for my current semester of CGA, and $8,508 from being fully funded for all three semesters I’m gonna be spending here. Big numbers, but nothing is too big for my God! If you’d like to help me continue this season of preparation, discipleship, and adventure, please consider donating! Just click the “Support Me” link in the sidebar of this blog. Thanks for all your support! You guys RULE!!!
