Shame. Fear. Doubts. All things i came onto the race carrying, but didn’t realize til the Lord started to bring them out through one-on-ones, prodding questions, and quiet times. I had a bit of an identity crisis because of it all. My eyes were opened to the way i actually saw myself, dirty, broken, used, unlovable, and unworthy. I didn’t know what it truly meant to be loved by God, i didn’t understand how he could see me as pure, i didn’t actually understand a lot of the things i knew to be true. I had a lot of head knowledge to put to heart knowledge. And slowly but surely the Lord started to renew and rewire my mind after praying day after day for it and slowly but surely i began to see myself the way the Lord does. Clean. Pure. New creation. My chains had been broken. I’ve been set free. I’m washed in the blood and that blood doesn’t come off. There’s nothing holding me back from his love and fully pursuing him. I’m finally making this faith my own. Because of this time of walking out my freedom in Christ and fully surrendering to him and his careful hands i decided to make a declaration of it and rededicated my life to him. I decided to get re-baptized when my squad went to Durban, South Africa. Thank you Jesus for the way you always bring us back to yourself!
All the love,
E 🙂
***FUNDRAISING UPDATE***
I only have $950 left til im fully funded!! Thank you all for the support!! Please continue to support me in my journey!
