To be completely open & honest, I’ve found myself wandering recently…. straying away from what I know and hold to be true. Not rejecting it but simply ignoring it, and neglecting it. Lukewarm.
I’ve learned a whole lot about having to choose, everyday, to follow Christ and put Him first above everything else,, but I still find myself struggling with that. I want everything my way all the time, even though I know it’s His timing, not mine and His plan and not mine. I don’t often wake up and think, “Lord, I choose you today”.
I’ve found myself wandering.
Never knowing what to do, not wanting to do anything, or wanting to do something but not bringing myself to actually do it. Life has been dull, lackluster. I’m sitting on a raft in the middle of ocean just letting the current and flow of life just drag me along. Living from exciting event to the next. Having a hard time living in the moment and doing the tasks set before me (*cough cough* fundraising & school *cough cough*)
This is an accidental part 2 to “growing pains”, but it works and I’m not mad about it. A little more personal and a little more of what’s actually going on in my life right now and what these new growing pains are like. And I really want to get better, it’s time because I can’t continue the way I’m going…
So a few quick goals before this blog gets any longer- maybe these will help keep me accountable:
– Buckle down for the rest of the school year- Graduation is so close!!
– Jump start my fundraising again- I got some new fundraisers comin’ at y’all soon (keep an eye out! Only about $600 dollars till I reach my first goal!!!!)
– Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude!!!!
– Look for the good in each day no matter how small
– Dive back into the word- Lord, bind my wandering heart to thee
Thank you all for the support!
All the love,
E 🙂
