Friends & Family
This day, I am 3 weeks away from my training camp and it is so amazing to see how God has put people in my life to support me through prayer and finances. My total today is $8,800 and I am approaching my last and final deadline August 22 of $12,491. I am praying and asking for people to prayerfully consider supporting me as I have one last deadline.
This past year has been a season of transition and change, and with that said I find it important to share how the Lord revealed the satisfaction of His presence amidst brokenness and uncertainty. I sit here today thinking about where my heart was about 5 months ago, and trying to put to words what I was feeling. It was much like walking a trail in the middle of a forrest, not knowing if you were walking towards the top of the mountain or if you were slowly losing your way every step you took. And as I sit here writing about what God taught me through that deep uncertainty, I am overjoyed. God walked me through pain and suffering out of the kindness of Himself – and I am reminded of that through the whole chapter of Hebrews 12 on the discipline of God, “It is for discipline that you have to endure. God is treating you as sons. For what son is there whom his father does not discipline?”
Through discipline came conviction, and through conviction came question and growth. As I found myself in pain, I asked the question to myself “What does it mean to be satisfied in God?”. We think of satisfaction of what we feel and not what we know. For example, I am satisfied after I eat a meal. The food satisfies my hunger. But, in the same way, can I be satisfied in God amidst what I feel? It provoked my mind as I thought of that concept. I thought, what does it even mean to be satisfied in God? We have used the word satisfied to describe how we feel after we have a good night’s rest, or a wonderful steak dinner.
God spoke and He revealed. I felt as if the Holy Spirit was speaking to me and teaching me about the satisfaction of God’s presence. And I came to a point where I felt as if God revealed to me: we are satisfied in God through the understanding of who has allowed pain and trial and who is sovereign over all creation and all things. We can trust in the Fatherhood of God, and we know that out of His kindness and love for us, He humbles us and brings us back into a relationship with Him. And through the understanding of God and the total submission to God’s will, we are drawn into an intimacy with Him that is more satisfying than anything.
