I think one of my biggest fears in blogging is that I’ll start sounding like a cliché Christian. There are times I’m hesitant to be vulnerable because I worry it will come across as I am stuck in a spiritual nonsensical cloud. I worry people who may not see things like me will give me polite smiles or blank stares confirming I’ve drifted away like their kid’s birthday balloon.
I ask the "what if" questions. "What if my faith will come across as intrusive, a 'Debbie Downer', or a joy kill?" Like a presentation of the book of rules we are supposed to live by instead of the joy in the freedom it offers.
So many people have told me before going on the World Race, “You’re going to change so much, you’ll be like a whole new person!” I know they mean this in a positive sense, but this statement freaks me out. I would hate to come home unrecognizable, like someone would have to get to know me all over again. The only thing I want changed is to be even more tangible for people. I hope for Christ in me to be accessible, enticing, and not far-fetched. I want this change simply because I want to know Christ as this for myself.
In Bob Goff’s book Love Does he writes,
“I think God pays attention to our hearts and enjoys when people want to get close to Him. He knows our sadness and the brokenness we want to hide from Him, and He sends people to look for us.”
I just want to help look for you…
How’s that for cliché?
