“It doesn’t matter how afraid we are or how uncomfortable we feel doing something. God has called us and chosen us to be doing that very thing. And He will prove faithful to what He brings us to do. Whether it be speaking to a million people, or praying for one. It doesn’t matter what we do or say because only God can move. We just have to do our part, which is obey and leave it in God’s hands to do the rest.”
Building faith is a hard thing to do. There aren’t things we can do to learn it except in opportunities to use it. It’s kind of like when you pray for God to teach you patience. How do we learn patience? Well, God tests it of course! I don’t ask to learn patience so quickly these days…:)
But faith is the same way. God teaches us faith by testing our faith, because in the testing of our faith, we have the choice to use it. Everyday, God speaks to us. Everyday, there are countless opportunities to build faith. Why else would Paul have to come out and tell us in Ephesians to “make the most of every opportunity“? Probably because he knew we’d miss them! I don’t want to miss opportunities. And God has been presenting plenty of them to build my faith.
We were riding back to our hotel from our area of ministry the other day when all of a sudden, our driver stopped the car in front of this tiny shack in the middle of no where. One of the women who works for ICM told us that there was a woman living in this house who had been sick for a long time. We were stopped because they wanted us to go in and pray for her. So the four of us who were in the car got out and walked into the “house.” The floorboards were broken and creaking, and I thought for sure I’d fall through at any moment. But we made our way to the back room where she was laying. She was skin and bone; she hadn’t been out of bed in months. Our contact spoke with her for a few moments, and then told us to start praying. Before we did, I asked if the woman had received Christ as her Savior. She answered that she had heard of Him, but hadn’t done it. I asked if she’d like to, and she said yes. So right there, our contact led this woman to the Lord. Tears of joy sprang to my eyes. Then we layed hands on her and prayed for her. God didn’t heal her in that very moment. I’ve never seen a miraculous healing right when I ask for it. It gets very difficult sometimes when you pray for healing and you don’t see it. In those moments, I know that God is presenting me with a choice: to trust His word and promise that whatever I ask in His name, that I have it, even if I don’t see it, or to pull back from Him because I didn’t see what I asked for. I’ll be honest, sometimes I pull back 
and have to wrestle with Him. But I also know that every time I don’t physically see a healing, but choose to believe that the person is healed, God is building my faith, and He delights in my prayers and my heart.
and have to wrestle with Him. But I also know that every time I don’t physically see a healing, but choose to believe that the person is healed, God is building my faith, and He delights in my prayers and my heart. So many times in His word, He tells us to obey His commands. In John 14, He says many times to “remain in me, and I will remain in you. You will remain in me when you obey my commands…the man who loves me is the one who obeys my commands.” This means that every time I obey my Lord, I show my love to Him, and in my obedience, He and I are building my faith, together. That means more to me than seeing any miracle with my physical eyes. I know that building faith is going to be a constant lesson for the rest of my life. But I’m excited to learn it with God.
Lighting Up the World,
~Eryn
