Growing up, I always thought that I had a weird heart. I was affected by things in ways that no one understood. I have always been very sensitive to things; movies, books, stories, incidents and the like can make me extremely joyful or heartbroken. I never thought that my sensitivity meant anything except that it was annoying sometimes. I’ve had thoughts and theories of why I am the way that I am.
Today God opened my eyes to confirm the reality of what goes on in my heart and spirit.
Our squad leader, Robby Riggs, has been travelling with my team during our trek the last two weeks. He’s been very good for us and it’s been awesome having him around. But today, after asking the Lord, he was baptized for the first time since he was an infant. It was a beautiful day, and we walked to a nearby waterfall to do it. Taniuska played her guitar and we all sat on the rocks while our ministry contact, Peter, got into the water with Robby. Peter read a few passages of scripture and I watched Robby’s face as he listened. I was so excited for him. As the time grew nearer for him to be baptized, I felt my heart getting bigger and bigger and I knew I was going to cry. They walked out into the deeper water, and Peter baptized him. My heart exploded and my eyes overflowed with tears of joy. I was like, “Lord, I know this is a beautiful thing, and it’s one thing to be happy for him,, but really, why am I feeling this way?” He answered me. It’s a gift, He said. You see, God is letting my heart feel what His heart is feeling. So as I watched Robby getting baptized, I was watching through His eyes and feeling with His heart. He was so excited for Robby, and His heart literally exploded when he went under the water. Then He gave me a Word for Robby, too, and I’ve been realizing I have the gift of prophesy, which blows my mind. But I was in awe. Jesus lets me feel what His heart is feeling. Read that again. Jesus lets me feel what His heart is feeling! How beautiful is that? When the Father’s heart is overjoyed, my heart feels it. When His heart is breaking, my heart feels it. When His heart is righteously angry, my heart feels it. Do you realize how incredible that is?
Wow.
