First, let me start off by saying how incredibly overwhelmed with love I have felt. Since getting accepted to the World Race, I have not stopped receiving support and blessings and love from those around me. So thank you for all of the continued encouragement!!
In about 8 and a half short months I will be on my way to launch, saying goodbye to the only life I’ve ever known and beginning a new chapter (which may sound kind of dramatic, but it’s also true!). I’m caught somewhere between “Oh, that’s so far away” and “HOLY COW IT’S ONLY 8 MONTHS AWAY!!!!” Time flies so fast (especially when life is jam packed up until launch!), but I am challenging myself to take in as much as possible during this time of preparation.
I recently had to read Humility: True Greatness by C.J. Mahaney for a class, and oh how challenging it was (10/10 would recommend). He showed me how my pride gets in the way of the trust that I have in God. When we think that our success is purely due to our own actions and abilities, we have the mindset of independence from God; we go through our day thinking we can do things without Him. On our own, we will always fail; it is only Christ through us who allows us to see success. So, when we worry we are actually doubting God’s ability, not our own. Through worrying we are really showing that we are in doubt of God’s faithfulness, even though God continues to be faithful time and time again.
This hit right at home for me. I catch myself continuously worrying about things that are out of my control. One major thing on my mind right now is funds (which I’m sure many people can relate to). There are so many “What if…” thoughts that have seeped into my mind regarding raising money for this trip, especially with so many other things happening before I leave. However, I have to continuously remind myself that I serve a God full of grace and power. I have to throw my own pride aside and let God show-off His amazing ability. I have full confidence that He will continue to provide, because He already has.
As I mentioned in my last blog, I am finishing out my final year of college (!!!!!!) and will be student teaching in the Fall! So yeah, life is pretty insane right now with graduation being less than a month away. I could not be more excited (to student teach, but also to be done with school). One obstacle I knew I would have to overcome is the tricky situation of having to leave for Training Camp in October, right in the middle of student teaching. I kept telling myself that it will work out, it will work out, it will work out…. but of course I still had concerns because I’m prideful.
But you know what, just like EVERY SINGLE OTHER TIME, God was faithful and allowed things to work out. I was able to meet with my professor and figure out how to make up the days I will be missing. Peace overcame me and it was the perfect reminder that God is never, ever going to stop being faithful. He has proved it to me time and time again, and each time I am reminded what an amazing and selfless God I serve.
I have continuously been brought back to Psalm 121 over the past year. It states: “The LORD watches over you- the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm- he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and your going both now and forevermore.”
God’s faithfulness is what I will be clinging to in this time of preparation. While I am so excited for all of the opportunity to come, I am even more excited to see the ways in which God works through them.
Thanks for reading!
